I walk every morning in Mount Prospect Park, a block from my home, where my dog can run off leash for half an hour before I start my work day. I’ve visited this park for nearly twenty years, never as regularly as I do now, since we got this pandemic dog. Several days in a row this fall were extremely misty; the mist settled between the trees and sat on the dying grass and dirt. The sky white. And that mist changed my walks. All I could look at was the trees. The park has giant oaks scattered around a loop, a grassy field in the center of the walking path. These oaks are probably over a hundred years old based on their size and the fact that many of the apartment buildings in my neighborhood were built around 1905, the trees were probably planted with the buildings. They’re giants and their forked branches seem to reach toward each other on all sides. Without their leaves, in the late fall, and punctuated with this dense mist, I felt I could see them in glowing relief. And it seemed they had made effort, over decades, to hold hands with each other- trunks planted twenty feet apart, they had eventually accomplished a touching of branches, probably an underground mingling of roots too.
I noticed one tree had a kite stuck in its branches. The kite looks serviceable and still pretty with a rainbow of colors and as I imagined retrieving it, my eyes picked out another caught in the same tree. And then in disbelief, I saw a third and fourth. It was a kite-eating tree, like in a Charlie Brown movie. The tree held these four kites, higher than any parent could reach or kid could climb, and that was that. The kites would remain. For some reason it made me think of unfinished writing projects. Kites in trees. Serviceable, almost good, almost done, almost able to soar, but stuck in some branches. Unreachable. Many writers I know chronically have kites stuck in trees. That hasn’t been my MO. I tend to finish things after a very long time. I stick with one project over five or six or seven or ten years, until it’s done. My slow writing pace a different challenge than perpetually unfinished writing. But I think all writers share the experience of untouched dreams of projects, ideas for books, secret desires of what you would write if you could just… that are like these rainbow shreds of fabric stuck in a mighty oak. The funny thing is that it seems a safe place for an idea to hold. Perhaps let giant, old trees snag your early imaginings. They’ll keep them for you while you dally, or work too hard at other things, or even forget. They’ll hide them in foliage, or fly them high like unreachable flags in the mist, and they’ll safe keep them until you find yourself ready one day to fly your kite again.